Yeah...today I'm stepping into a new day with a new age but what's new with my life?
NOTHING.....
What have I achieve for all these 23 years?
Ermm......
I got a lot of fren?
I'm browsing through my fb as usual n suddenly, my heart taps like no other day....
Suddenly I realize, nobody ever gonna wait for you even your best friend.
NOBODY!!!
That's the fact n the truth that's hard for me to swallow...
I always rely on my friends during my school year...I need them because most of the time I'm far from my family
Starting at the early age of 13, I started my life at the hostel...until the age of 22
What and where else can you depend or lay your heavy head on?
There goes my friends....
But.....
For how long?
Yes,today I've realized that you are on your own no matter what you do or where you are...
I'm ashamed of myself.....I'm not proud......
People only cares about you when you are in the top but once you've fall down, who's gonna catch you?
Face the reality my dear me...
Maybe I'm the only one who keeps on turning to the past...(browsing through old pictures and picturing all the memories)...
That's what been keeping me from feeling anything about other's success....I used to be happy for them
But.....
Today, I've realized that nobody is as emotional as me...
They've been marching forward fast....far from me...out of my reach...
I'm never going to catch up....
It's the first time that I feel something when I see my friends status or their pictures or their stories...
I've never felt this way before....
and its really hurt....
There's nowhere I can spill this feeling to....
I'm not the kind of people to force anybody to listen to my problem....
I just can write about it....
Sad?
Yeah...kind of
But don't feel sad for me, I can't never accept that....
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