Saturday, February 23, 2013

Run!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now.....
Now, I'm back to UMS
Why?
Well... the real reason I'm here is to run away
If I can count the percentage of how much I want to run away compared to how much I want to study..ermm....maybe 80% of it is to run away.
The urge to run away from home, from Sarawak, is so great that I don't even care to look back anymore? I guess...
Yeah...I'm being selfish, yes, I admit it!
But...
How can I not be selfish when my heart ache every now and then?
How can I not be selfish when I can't even stand to look at people around me anymore?
How can I not be selfish when I can't even stand to listen to people talking about me?
The pain is so severe that I can't even explain it in words...
and the pain is so deep that everytime I think about it, my chest feel heavy and my tears start to fall
Isn't that enough reason to run away?
I've been bearing that pain ever since I finish my study...its been 1 and half year...
and how much longer do I need to bear all that pain?
So...here I am now...running away from all my problems
Loser? Yes, I admit I'm being a loser here.